"What were you thinking?"

 

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This is a video from Oprah's speech recently at Her South African Academy.  This is the first graduating class.  In her speech she says,

 

"So, there were many days during these past 5 years I've asked myself, 'what were you thinking, WHAT were you thinking, you could build a school 8000 miles away and take girls from townships and rural areas and put them all under one roof, with the expectation that you would not only exceed..but excel, What were you thinking.' I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS DAY."

 

There have been times when I know Lincoln is making huge progress, but something happens that could be discouraging to me (if I let it). Recently a 3 year old simply asked, "where did my mommy go?"  It seems pretty simple but it reminded me that that was something Lincoln doesn't do, ask questions like that. In moments like that, I HAVE to go to images I have stored in my head.  I picture Lincoln walking across the stage at graduation with a typical group of peers, or I picture him going to prom or getting married. Mostly, I picture myself sitting In Dr. Chuck Edgington's office as he tells me, "your son no longer qualifies for an Autism Diagnosis."  I fill my head with those things so that I don't accept discouragement. I look forward to the day when this is what I will get to say;

 

" What were you thinking. what were you thinking..thinking your little boy would be healed of Autism.  That the Word of God does not return void, that despite some other people's opinions and acceptance that our kids are meant to stay this way, I chose to believe God and what His Word says.  That no matter how many tantrums he threw or setbacks we had or diagnoses we received, that we could conquer this! What were you thinking, thinking that your little boy would not only lose his Autism Diagnosis but excel more than one might think and never even remember the struggle.  What were you thinking, I WAS THINKING OF THIS DAY!"

 

I identify so much with what Oprah says here.  I understand her line of thinking. I think it is important to think about what we are thinking about.  No matter what happens, I shift my focus.  I refuse to be bogged down with discouragement.  I hope this encourages someone else.

 

"All thing are possible to He who believes"

 

Philippians 3:13

"One thing I do, forgetting what lies behind, straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the upward call of God in Christ Jesus, my Lord."